I haven’t been running the past 3 months, I had a plantar fasciitis after recovering from my back/hip pain.
I was sent to work overseas – Philippines, it was okey, good to see friends and my parents. But it is now a place that was once familiar which isn’t anymore. I never thought I’d come to a day to say, I miss home – Sydney. I have lots of respect and still find Philippines as home because I have friends and my parents are there, but I find home and contentment and happiness here in Sydney. It can be lonely being far away, but I get through it. I was away 37 days.
From December last year, I fell in love with someone, i liked him very much – we had so much in common, we enjoyed each other company – I was made to believe he loved and cared for me. But while I was overseas or even before i was sent overseas, he started drifting off. He wasn’t in love with me. Yes, I am very hurt. He says, there is nothing I have done to have caused it. It’s hard to accept and move on if you get reasons like this. I am trying my best to move on. It hurts so much. Words isn’t enough to show how much the pain is.
I am forcing myself to do things I like. Nothing has been taken away from me, I do love myself, I just need to accept and let go. That was 7 months – we almost lived in each other’s space everyday that’s why its hard, we have the same friends and groups. Nothing will take the pain away for now.
I have started running to help the process of healing- slowly not to aggravate my injury. Even if it means seeing him in the running club. Force myself to go to the gym, do Yoga, and climbing even if I see him there. I know time and space should heal, however, he did not want to stay away from the places we have in common, so I have to rough it through. I am hoping slowly that pain and hurt will go away.
Writing is also therapeutic for me. No I am not going to whinge or put the details here, all i know is I am very very hurt and in emotional and psychological pain.
Hoping this will pass … day at a time.
If little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you
Little by little
If suddenly you forget me
Do not look for me
For I shall already have forgotten you
If you think it long and mad the wind of banners that passes through my life
And you decide to leave me at the shore of the heart where I have roots
That on that day, at that hour, I shall lift my arms
And my roots will set off to seek another land”
― Pablo Neruda, Selected Poems
4/3/2014 -6.8 Kms Run + Yoga + legs
5/3/2014-Indoor Wall Climbing
6/3/2014 – Yoga
7/3/2014 – ~4 Kms TNT with Woodstock, trained alone, coaching the session
8/3/2014 – restday, lots of walking
9/3/2014 – 7 Km run -Handicap. 34:03
10/3/2014 – 10 Km run
11/3/2014 – Boxercise
22/2 – none
23/2 – brisk walk no idea how far it was @Manila
24/2 – none
25/2 – Ran 6.8 Km + core
26/2 – 1.5 hour climb
27/2 – 5 Km run
28/2 – arm weights + core
1/3 – 7 Km run
2/3 – Yoga + 1 hour climb
3/3 – none
Okey, I think my year is starting to pick up and going to get busy. Not much work to do, however lots of learning and studying at work and uni and deadlines respectively. Eeek cramming!
Been tweeting and updating too via my onelifecat FB page if you noticed.
My gym membership with Hardcandy is now activated for March, rejoined them because they gave me the same deal the first time I joined them 2 years ago, not a bad deal. Free 6 months free. Run club at work is getting active. Tomorrow will be a start of the week’s workout, too busy today to fit something in, glad my muscles are saying im sore so that means rest.
I’ve registered for City2Surf, that will be my longest distance goal for the year. I hope to still keep my red bib to run under 70 Mins for the 14Kms! I am daunted with the thought running that distance again. I know i’m not the best runner, but any insane runner would understand how pressuring it could be coming back from injury, from a past of a good PB year and now its just starting all over again. Its not even getting faster, the learning processes of acceptance and letting go of pressuring and being hard on myself, and to focus and enjoy the run and able to run again is what I should be doing.
I’ve got a 71% score for my Jantastic for the month because I missed logging my runs when I was traveling. oh well it’s not the end of the world!
Hope you are keeping fit!
While I am on holidays, it’s always difficult to organize how to get fit, running routes (very hard to find runner friendly areas and strengthening). Found out that Benguet State University where I am an alumni have new rules… I knew I’ve heard no ID policy before, but now they have placards saying “Jogging Time – 5am-7am.”
I was able to run 2x from 6pm and on the third time a guard told me “jogging” is not allowed on the time I was there. I just told them I was on my way to the oval. I found that annoying, being an alumni and if they are worried about pedestrian congestion, well, the university is closed at 6pm, officer finish at 5pm!
I was able to do my weight workout at a local gym – A&A near the provincial capitol where my sister go. So I am glad to do few runs and some workouts to balance all the lots of eating as usual. :)
5/2/2014 – none
6/2/2014 – none
7/2/2014 – 7.6 Km @Makati neighborhood
8/2/2014 – none
9/2/2014 – 5 km + gym arms, core, legs
10/2/2014 – none
11/2/2014 – 5.7 km
12/2/2014 – none
13/2/2014 – none
14/2/2014 – 4.6 Km
15/2/2014 – gym – whole body workout
16/2/2014 – 5.7 km
18/2/2014 – 5.7 Km run + 8.4 Km Hike
19/2/2014 – 8.4 Km Hike
20/2/2014 – none
21/2/2014 – 8.9 km
28/1/2014 – 7.57 Km Run
29/1/2014 – Wall climbing
30/1/2014 – 4.56 Km, 1 Mi PB with Woodstock Runners TNT
31/1/2014 – Wall climbing
1/2/2014 – 11.56 Km Run with Woodstock Runners
2/2/2014 – Yoga @ lululemon Balmain
3/2/2014 – Arm weights, Legs, Core
weight – 43Kls
Thirtieth of January 2014 and it’s Thursday. Woodstock Runner’s Thursday Night Training, and this Thursday is not my coaching duties, still coughing, and did not know what the training is scheduled on that day. But I was definitely going as it is also the end of the month Pub night!
Decided to just come back after work and change from home as I am picking team mate Lawrence anyway. As I am trying to get something done at work, I accidentally pushed the time too close to 6PM and as I learned Lawrence got his license back too, so that is good news, He is happy to drive himself to TNT.
Got in the track just on time, no warm ups and learned it was Magic Mile and 400m repeats. Racing a Mi or any speed work is always hard. Conditions was hot and windy.
Did the drills lead by coach Angela and I was already buggered. I knew I was going to be slow this day. Wasn’t expecting anything, i’ve accepted I’m going to be slow.
And so coach Martin called out for the start of the Mile Run and told us to consider it as a race! *gulp, scared*
Looked around to see who I can pace with. I did run with Jamie the last time, but she wasn’t there. I knew Jenny is running well at the moment and I can try to be on her tail at least.
Four laps, that is how long it will take us to complete the mile. I started conservatively, this is tricky as you do not want to blow your engine just yet. The plan is going well, I was just behind Jen, and lap 2nd, I was breathing on her neck, I did not want to go in front of her as I knew she is faster than me, Lap 3, she wasn’t gearing up, yet I felt I can lead Lap 3 and try lap 4. So I got up ahead of her and just slowly picking my pace, we hit 1 Km at the 3rd lap as I heard my watch beep, and so I encouraged her there is 1 more lap to go and pick her pace up. I can hear her breathing and she said “she’s trying” and I told her to keep on trying, at 200M to go, I told her to give it all and sprint it as I went, I can hear her breathing on my neck this time, so she pushed me too, it was a good race. As we crossed the line, I had my time at 6 mins 32, so I thought that was slower than the last one of 6.29.
But after the 400 m repeats that was the only time I finally stopped my watch, and it alarmed me I broke my mile record. Hah! Happy. 6.16. Surprise surprise!
Oh and I just found out as I am uploading my stats… I also beat my fastest 1K (based on nikeplus watch stats…i don’t know my 1K stats)
I only did seven 400m laps tho. Was already hard enough.
21/1/2014 – 5.76 Km run
22/1/2014 – core+leg workout (squats, lunges, dead lifts) + 1 ++ hr wall climb
23/1/2014 – 5×3 min ~ 4 Kms
24/1/2014 – run through the city ~5Km
25/1/2014 – 7.11 Km with Woodstock Runners Saturday Training Run
26/1/2014 – 7 Km around the Bay – Australia Day Woodstock Run
27/1/2014 – Arms + Core
Weight = 43 Kls
** 3rd week still with cough :-/